I know I had a huge crush on you, when…

1. My heart sank as I noticed you would board another carriage of the train.

2. I walked to your train carriage, uttering the “excuse me-s” along the way,  just to stand in front of you.

3. I was on the same page of the book throughout train journey, pretending to be reading while nailing my eyes on you. I scrutinized your physique, thoroughly, to stock up mental information to fantasize about being with you.

4. I felt a sudden urged to stand behind you and fondle the soft hair and the eyelids enveloping those cold, icy eyes. And gently touch those curl of lips, with mine.

5. I imagined how great we look together when I realized – after five minutes of investigation – that you did not have any ring on your fingers.

6. I felt inferior and disconcerted because you did not notice me, and did not seemed to be feeling the same kind of attraction that you cast on me; Should I spend more time tweaking my hair or sleep a few hours earlier to avoid those red spots on my skin or dress more fashionably to strut my virility?

7. I felt the air gushing in and out of my nostrils as you began to notice my book on my palm. Your eyes were scaling my hand, my abdomen, my chest, my neck, and then, my heart skipped a beat when our eyes met – twice, and on both occasion I quickly looked away like a shy boy.

8. I quickly walked towards the empty seat opposite yours as soon as I noticed there was one.

9. I was devastated when the train arrived at your destination, just as I sat down. I could only watch your back and sigh – with a touch of resignation, until you vanished in the darkness of the night.

10. I felt I was electrocuted, numbed, paralyzed, and crippled by the powerful arrows of the cupid, unable to do anything at all except thinking about you.